Most people have a difficult time saying goodbye. We make attachments to people, things and ways of life. We get complacent in our lives.
I learned in my early 20’s that there would be all to many goodbyes for me in life. I lost two pregnancies, said a farewell to my mother who passed when I was 24, mourned the loss of my grandmother who was like a second mother to me. ( she always said I was her favorite! Some how I think she told all my cousins that lol). And to top it all off got divorced.
Saying goodbye has given me thick skin. By the time I was 34, and my father passed and once again saying goodbye for good ran deep through my veins. I also had expieranced a ectopic pregnancy and had emergency surgery to remove one of my fallopian tubes. At this early age saying goodbye to so many people and things did not make it any easier by any means, it just made saying it take on a different meaning for me in my life. I accepted saying goodbye as a new phase. Moving beyond today, missing yesterday and looking toward a hopeful future.
That is why as I prepare to say goodbye to my breasts I shall not morn! I will not regret getting rid of the cancer in me by amputating them. I am moving onto a new phase in my life. Of course there is always that ” chance” it can rear its ugly head at any time. But is that not the case with everyone? It is never expected for these things to happen at the perfect time in our lives. But this time I am in charge of my body!! I can say where and when they go this time.
So it is now time to draw the final curtain on my girls. Its time for them to take a final bow. It has been fun living with you. At times you have looked great, but more recently you made me ill and caused me anxiety and pain. And for that I shall say my final goodbye to you both!! Its been nice knowing you, but my new ones I think I will enjoy much more, because they will not try to kill me! GOODBYE!!!!!!!!!!!