Mastectomy day is TODAY!!!! Goodbye girls!

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Its finally here. The day of my mastectomy. I am scheduled for 12:30 pm to have my breasts removed and all the pain they had caused. All gone in mear hours. Its been such a long journey to get to this point. There is a end to this long pink tunnel of breast cancer, and tomorrow is the day!!”
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To My Breasts:

Tomorrow comes with mixed emotions, sadness, anxiety but also relief and happiness. Yes, it is the right decision for me and then I can move on with my life! Fighting with you for almost three year has been to long and draining. And for what?? Just for you to come around every six months. You really are like a bad habit you just can’t shake!!

Sorry girls…I have enjoyed you since I was nine. At times you look fantastic all dressed up. And over the years you drew much attention, some wanted and some not ( men can be such creeps lol). Today you are getting your walking papers, don’t be mad if I don’t cry! I have cried enough over you both. I learned you deceived me into thinking you where healthy and a wonderful part of me. You had somehow hid this illness from me for a while and you compromised my life. I lost my hair because of you and the chance to ever have more children. How could you have done this to me!! I took you shopping at Victoria’s Secrets bought you nice things and yet you tried to kill me. And for this I am saying my final goodbye to you ! Actually I take that back…GOOD RIDDANCE once and for all!! Don’t let the door hit yea where the good lord spilt yea!

Sincerely,

Heather

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This is my war paint! Cancer read between the lines, the pink middle finger is for you!!

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About chemobrainandmore

My name is Heather and I am now 39 yrs old living at the Jersey shore. I was diagnosed Jan 2011 with stage II A breast cancer right after my 36th birthday. Sadly I was married for just a year at the time.I had four rounds of chemo 33 round of radiation a lumpectonly and MANY ,MANY biopsies. As if that was not enough I ended up having a total hysterectomy summer of 2012. And then this past July 2013 I under went a bilateral mastectomy and I am still under going reconstruction. I am a mom, a wife and a survivor! I have had more ups and downs then I have fingers and toes! But through it all I have had a smile on my face and try to laugh my way through it all. I have done two Strides Walk for breast cancer and I am extremely proud of how much I have raised ( I made pacesetter status!) I enjoy laughing and making people laugh, and if my blog can shed some light on cancer and make one person laugh at ,or with me ,then the fight has been worth it. Thank you for reading about my life and taking a ride with me on this journey. Feel free to reach out to me, I love being able to pay it forward and help others!

3 responses »

  1. You are the strongest woman I know!! Be brave and ill be there when you come out of surgery! I love you girl! Xoxoxox

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