When I was in the hospital doing laps on the Surgical Oncology floor with my IV pole in tow .I saw a woman in this sitting room having chemo. The view from the room was beautiful, it overlooks a river and there where small sail boats dancing on the water, pretty much a picture perfect day with the exception of just having surgery. I smiled at the women thinking that could be me again. And also curious about her cancer journey. I said to her it was to nice outside to be stuck in my hospital room. She the said to me, ” some people choose to live and some choose to exisit “. I thought to myself what a interesting thing to say. My answer was I choose to live!!!! I guess some people give up when they have the big C. I don’t know any other way but to fight and live. This surgery by far, pain wise, is on the edge of being unbearable, however I wouldn’t have it any other way. Because I have this pain and feel it means I’m alive!!! And I choose to live!!!