Today is one of the bad days for me. Why you may ask? I’m cancer free, my girls are starting to be filled up I should be thrilled, right???
After my fill up two days ago the pain from the expanders is back. Its been six weeks of on going pain physically. I believe I am starting to grieve all my losses from my past up till today. I never did that with my ectopic pregnancy or the lumpectomy, or the hysterectomy. And now with the bilateral mastectomy its a bit much. I feel my sprit, like a heavy stone that has been thrown into a pond,is slowly sinking to the bottom.
Hopefully this journey I’m on leads me back to the top of that pond. Where I can float free and be myself again.