Week 7 post op, I got my second fill up, I will take unleaded please!


Well I got another 50 CC’s today! Woo whoo! Maybe by the next fill up I can get a training bra for the girls lol!! Actually no bra required right now, its very liberating! See look another positive to having cancer!


Look how little they are, so cute l

I do have to say this fill up was a doozy! My left side took about five minutes of digging with that bat size needle to find the port in the expander.

Then the right side ( the radiated side) is becoming hard and really, really hurts. The needle went in fine except it hit my chest muscle on the way in,and my muscle started  contracting. This was a very strange feeling. So today I was a human dart board! I’m sure my husband with all the stress from this wouldn’t mind taking a shot at throwing a dart at me!! Lmao


We also found out that this whole process is A LOT longer then expected. I’m just freaking because the holidays, my anniversary and three birthdays are coming up, disability pay just just does not cut it. I can see myself now with a pile of pine cones, Elmer’s glue and glitter making gifts!! ” Sorry son, no tablet for Christmas, but I make you this nifty glitter cone!”. Don’t think that will go over to well with a 14 yr old.




About chemobrainandmore

My name is Heather and I am now 39 yrs old living at the Jersey shore. I was diagnosed Jan 2011 with stage II A breast cancer right after my 36th birthday. Sadly I was married for just a year at the time.I had four rounds of chemo 33 round of radiation a lumpectonly and MANY ,MANY biopsies. As if that was not enough I ended up having a total hysterectomy summer of 2012. And then this past July 2013 I under went a bilateral mastectomy and I am still under going reconstruction. I am a mom, a wife and a survivor! I have had more ups and downs then I have fingers and toes! But through it all I have had a smile on my face and try to laugh my way through it all. I have done two Strides Walk for breast cancer and I am extremely proud of how much I have raised ( I made pacesetter status!) I enjoy laughing and making people laugh, and if my blog can shed some light on cancer and make one person laugh at ,or with me ,then the fight has been worth it. Thank you for reading about my life and taking a ride with me on this journey. Feel free to reach out to me, I love being able to pay it forward and help others!

6 responses »

  1. Glad you are getting filled up but sorry it took you feeling like a dart board! I’ve already set the “no christmas presents for anyone” standard although I don’t have kids so it’s a bit easier. I love the glitter pinecones 🙂

  2. I’d be very interested to know about your radiation process and how that’s affected your reconstruction options, if at all. Did yo have much tissue damage or other side effects?

    I love the pine cone idea! I always think about how spoiled my kids are. I actually feel sick sometimes on Christmas morning when I can’t find space to walk on the living room floor for all the presents. I’d love to take a few giant steps back!

    • Hi! Thanks for checking out my blog. Actually the radiation on my right side was a huge reason I chose to go with the expander. I realized I have a increased chance of issues and infection, so the flap is my plan B surgery. If anything that I have learned on this journey is if there is a complication to be had I usually have it lol. I just found out today I am developing the dreaded lymphedema on the right side, and I saw your post about the massage. I was not sent for PT after surgery, however I will be going now. I didn’t notice my arm swelling, my husband was the one that noticed two days before I started feeling it.

      • So sorry about the lymphedema! I hope you can get some relief. I hear ya about getting the weird complications. When I had a “spinal headache” from an epidural during a c-section, they said that happens one time a year. Seriously! What the hell! Why can’t my luck be like that for the lottery or something?

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