2, The Magic Number!


I am finally here! The end of having my expanders getting filled. No more gigantic needles in my breasts every week!!! Thursday will mark one of the last fills I will have. I am currently at 900 CC’s, so only 50 to go! I feel that I am half way through this long, long journey, yippie!!!


However this does not come without some concerns.The first is, I am uneven. My left breast is bigger then the right by a lot. Two, I am afraid they are not big enough. Now I know what your thinking, ” how the hell can 950 not be enough?”. Well, when I had my mastectomy done, my one breast was 1600 cc’s. So what I have is half of what I had before. The actual implant that are going to be put in are 800cc’s.I just don’t get this numbers game! Why do I go 150cc’s bigger only to disappoint me with a set of ping pong balls I will call my breasts! Now Im not looking to be Pam Anderson, I just want my body to look balanced. I know there will be fat transfered by lipo(I have many places on my body to get that from lol). We can do a tissue transfer, but do I want to be cut up more?? And not to mention I still have not decided on what I want do about the nipples. So many choices to make!


I hope I dont look like this!!


About chemobrainandmore

My name is Heather and I am now 39 yrs old living at the Jersey shore. I was diagnosed Jan 2011 with stage II A breast cancer right after my 36th birthday. Sadly I was married for just a year at the time.I had four rounds of chemo 33 round of radiation a lumpectonly and MANY ,MANY biopsies. As if that was not enough I ended up having a total hysterectomy summer of 2012. And then this past July 2013 I under went a bilateral mastectomy and I am still under going reconstruction. I am a mom, a wife and a survivor! I have had more ups and downs then I have fingers and toes! But through it all I have had a smile on my face and try to laugh my way through it all. I have done two Strides Walk for breast cancer and I am extremely proud of how much I have raised ( I made pacesetter status!) I enjoy laughing and making people laugh, and if my blog can shed some light on cancer and make one person laugh at ,or with me ,then the fight has been worth it. Thank you for reading about my life and taking a ride with me on this journey. Feel free to reach out to me, I love being able to pay it forward and help others!

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