Life FINALLY back to normal!?

Life FINALLY back to normal!?

What is normal after having two bouts of cancer?? Are you ever the same again? How do you get from here to there? These are some questions I’ve been asking myself.

First step is finishing up physical therapy. Unfortunately I go three times a week, I had no strength in my arms. But I’ve made great strides, but some how I don’t think I will be entering in any power lifting contests anytime soon! I have I also lost 40 pounds by juicing, eating organic, cutting out red meat and ALL sugar/sugar substitutes in the hopes of becoming healthier and stronger. I don’t EVER want to be sick again!!!!!!!

Next, mentally preparing to go back to work. I am nervous but excited at the same time. I can’t wait to see all my friends that have been a huge support this time around. The “chemobrain” from three years ago STILL lingers, and is aggravated by the menopause, Femora and stress. It’s beyond frustrating and embarrassing. I know I ask my husband four, five times a day the same question! How am I going to manage at work with the memory issues??? I guess I’ll be headed to Costco for a case of post it’s! The other thing about work is I know the second I see people that I have not seen since the mastectomy I know their eyes will be looking at the “new” girls. Do I first say to them ” hey I’m up here! It’s just something uncomfortable I’ve been noticing people do since the surgery. I may just stick one of those post it’s on my chest and write on it ” hey, eyes up here!!”.

Wish me luck this week, for it’s off to work I go to begin my “new” normal!


About chemobrainandmore

My name is Heather and I am now 39 yrs old living at the Jersey shore. I was diagnosed Jan 2011 with stage II A breast cancer right after my 36th birthday. Sadly I was married for just a year at the time.I had four rounds of chemo 33 round of radiation a lumpectonly and MANY ,MANY biopsies. As if that was not enough I ended up having a total hysterectomy summer of 2012. And then this past July 2013 I under went a bilateral mastectomy and I am still under going reconstruction. I am a mom, a wife and a survivor! I have had more ups and downs then I have fingers and toes! But through it all I have had a smile on my face and try to laugh my way through it all. I have done two Strides Walk for breast cancer and I am extremely proud of how much I have raised ( I made pacesetter status!) I enjoy laughing and making people laugh, and if my blog can shed some light on cancer and make one person laugh at ,or with me ,then the fight has been worth it. Thank you for reading about my life and taking a ride with me on this journey. Feel free to reach out to me, I love being able to pay it forward and help others!

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