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Hi there! I’m back and here’s what I’ve been up to

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Hi there! I’m back and here’s what I’ve been up to

                                        



So I know I have not posted in quite some time. So Here are things in the past few months in a nut she’ll.

I returned back to work to in May to my normal routine. It was extremely hard because of the chemo brain trying to remember everything which I’m sure others can relate to. Unfortunately in October I thought I had a really bad stomach virus and went to the emergency room I was misdiagnosed with a neoplasm in my liver and was completely freaked out that the cancer had metastasized. The next day I went to my oncologist and by the time I got there I was in liver failure and returned back to the emergency room and low and behold I had gallstones and pancreatitis! Seriously you can’t make this crap up!! The pancreatitis was so bad I was admitted to the hospital for seven days and ended up having my gallbladder removed. So that was a lot of fun because it was my son’s first homecoming and unfortunately I had to miss that milestone. Btw being admitted that long is enough to make you nuts! I was lucky enough for three days to have the room to myself. Plus I had a fan and febreeze with me to make it more tolerable. You know me I’m always looking for a way to make to crappy stuff a little more easy to deal with.





Then next, I had my six-month infusion. That was a treat as always, however it was made worse by my new diagnosis of Lupis. Yes, another wonderful aliment that I have been blessed with. Thanks to my surgical oncologist who recommended me going to a rheumatologist because of my PTSD ,anxiety ,skin disorders and allergies she  pinpointed that it might be something other then a coincidence I had all these issues. So after going through all the testing with the rheumatologist I was also diagnosed with Epstein- Barr . I’m glad I have these diagnosis is now because I am absolutely exhausted all the time and I couldn’t figure out why.( so to everyone who thought I was lazy, haha your wrong).

And last but not least looking towards the future I’m starting to begin planning my next reconstruction surgery. It’s been a year since I’ve had my implants put in and I truly feel like it’s time to close the door in this chapter. I’m starting to feel somewhat incomplete by the way I look. I’m just worried about the anesthesia and going through the pain of not being able to be mobile for a few weeks. Not that I’m not saying having my breasts perfect makes me a complete person, but I’m just reminded every single time I look in the mirror of what I’ve been through the past four years of my life. Truthfully I’m just really over cancer. And plus I finally get to get my tattoos of the cherry and strawberry for my nipples! LOL

The other thing that I’ve been up to is I open my own Etsy store to help with my anxiety. I usually do my crafting late at night when I can’t sleep ,I find it extremely calming. Personally when I was going through my chemo treatment or anytime now that I am really anxious, my husband takes me for a ride down by the beach. So I figured why not start a little Etsy store with my crafts that I do with sea glass, shells,  jewelry and wreaths. Plus who can’t use a little extra money for the medical bills! If you would like to check out my store here is the link, I hope you enjoy it. I called it ShoreSerenity.

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If the link does not work go to Etsy and put in ShoreSerenity to vist my store!

I hope you enjoy!





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Some food for thought

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When I was in the hospital doing laps on the Surgical Oncology floor with my IV pole in tow .I saw a woman in this sitting room having chemo. The view from the room was beautiful, it overlooks a river and there where small sail boats dancing on the water, pretty much a picture perfect day with the exception of just having surgery. I smiled at the women thinking that could be me again. And also curious about her cancer journey. I said to her it was to nice outside to be stuck in my hospital room. She the said to me, ” some people choose to live and some choose to exisit “. I thought to myself what a interesting thing to say. My answer was I choose to live!!!! I guess some people give up when they have the big C. I don’t know any other way but to fight and live. This surgery by far, pain wise, is on the edge of being unbearable, however I wouldn’t have it any other way. Because I have this pain and feel it means I’m alive!!! And I choose to live!!!

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I am The Princess and the Pea ( hopefully mine will have a happy ending no pun intended LOL)

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Sooooooooooooo, I find myself once again back at the doctor’s office for another issue. I mean seriously does this crap ever stop??? Today’s issue is pain in my tail bone. I literally have a pain in the ass! I blame myself for putting this off for about 10 months but, I’ve been kind of busy with my hysterectomy and the second breast cancer scare. I’m sick of going to the doctor’s office if you know what I mean.
Yesterday I finally got to my wit’s end and couldn’t take the pain anymore. No matter if I’m walking standing or sitting, well especially sitting .I am in so much pain there is nothing I have found that gives me any sort of relief.Of course in my mind the Big C is to blame for all of this. I keep wondering if the chemotherapy could have done something to my bones? Could possibly could a metathesis somewhere else my body? Of course with my luck it has come back in my ass, as if it wasn’t big enough as it is lol !!!!I know this might sound crazy but it’s very real to me.

You have to see my chair at work I’m at the point were I have an orthopedic pillow and two doughnut gel filled pillows .
The pillows are so high up I actually have to hop onto my chair to get on! I just know people walking by me think i have a RAGING case of hemrroids lol!

This may be a pea, but my pillows are just as high!!

This may be a pea, but my pillows are just as high!!

Today I found myself back at the hospital having several x-rays of my tailbone taken.They said I have a nice sacrum, “why thank you I said”. I have to say I have never been compliment on that body part before lol. I hope and pray in the end (haha get it ,in the end ) everything will be okay. I have a feeling I will end up having an MRI. I will be interesting having the other end of my body scanned for a change! Next stop seems to be pain management…

WHEN WILL I BE FREE OF WORRY AND PAIN? I JUST WANT IT TO STOP. IS THAT TO MUCH TO ASK?

What to do, what to do???

What to do, what to do???