Well, it’s finally here!! My consultation for my mastectomy reconstruction and nipple reconstruction is tomorrow. Yes, once again more surgery. At this point I’ve stopped counting lol. It’s been well over a year I had my implants placed, now it’s time to tune them up!
I approach this with joy, excitement and fear. Excitement to be “complete”, joy to be moving on with this and fear of the unknown. How will I look? Will I be happy? And of course how much will it hurt? All I know there is something in me that says now is the right time. I want to feel whole again. I know the fear of cancer will always linger but finishing this process will help me have some closure to the cancer chapter in my life, and allow me to open a new chapter…life after cancer, being a survivor!
I received a a book called “Words That Matter” by the Oprah Magazine. This quote is about the truth of ones body, it really struck a cord with me. Enjoy!
“I look at my very imperfect body and see its patches of history, like stamps on a passport. The stamps aren’t the kind of thing that would make me throw off my towel at the gym or be the first to jump naked into a lake. But like a good story, they remind me of where I been, and the annoying and endearing people I’ve met along the way.” – Betsy Carter
My body maybe in a state of transformation right now, and I accept that. I have many, many scars to show for the battles I have fought and won. I wear them as my metals of honor, because they are mine, I own them. The scars will always be there to remind me that I am stronger then I think! And no matter what life challenges are out there waiting for me, I can look at those scars and say, “I’ve got this!“.